Tortured Pineapple

What would happen if we could choose our time to die?
How would you change?
Would we still put off what could be done now?
Would we invest in ourselves differently?
How different would we treat our surroundings?
Would we still be conformist?
How would it affect our communities and governments?
How would it feel to live free from “mother nature” and […]

Things are good.  I finally see a path.   I’m not sure where I should start or what I think this post will accomplish.  I’m not in the mood to have my mind flooded with the highs and lows of the last 6 months.    I dont even want to look back over my […]

Two whole month this post has been standing over me.  I never knew how to approach it.  One minute I wanted to talk about how I missed him and the next I wanted him out of my mind.  It’s difficult to write about something that your body wont let you.  I do miss Buckley.  I’m […]

Buckley has told me that he doesn’t feel the same about me as I do him.  He said he could continue seeing me, and tell me this next week, in three months or even six months down the line.  But he was telling me that he didn’t feel like going into a deeper relationship with […]

He choose to avoid the topic over the weekend.  Later on that week we had planned to speak before going to bed and make plans for the weekend.  No call came and since it was getting late I decided to text him to see if he was still up.  Half an hour later he wrote […]

I’m in the middle of some emotions right now.  I like to write in order to work through emotions, but at this moment I know there is nothing I can do but wait for my answers.  I might as well write about what I am experiencing at this time.  Alex has found someone.  She is […]

Alex has been stressing about dating for some time. Things just haven’t gone as well for him as he had hoped.  Meanwhile, the opposite is happening with me.  When we first decided to start dating I wanted to start first for several different reasons.  I had some jealousy and esteem issues to work out before […]

Life has been pretty chaotic for the last month.  Everything seems to take such great effort.  I have to make an effort to cook, clean and exercise.  I just dont have the motivation I used to have.  Alex and I have been arguing a little bit.  Mostly about our spending habits.  It’s not because I […]

I ended up taking the job at the retail company. I am very excited about my decision. It is a fun work environment and quite no nonsense. I am concerned a bit about how much I am being paid, but there is a lot of opportunity for wage increases as well […]

I’ve been laid off from my job *deep exhale* I’m now looking for my 6th job since I’ve been in Big City and have the unfortunate disadvantage of it being in the middle of summer and in a potential recession. The Great Depression lasted 10 years and it didn’t reach the bottom for 3 […]