Buckley has told me that he doesn’t feel the same about me as I do him.  He said he could continue seeing me, and tell me this next week, in three months or even six months down the line.  But he was telling me that he didn’t feel like going into a deeper relationship with me.  He said the chemistry was not there.  He told me he really enjoyed our time and that he appreciated how good I was to him, and that it was only fair he tell me now.  He said it was hard for him and he was scared to call, but didn’t want to put it off any longer.

I was speechless. I hadn’t, in my wildest dreams, considered that it would end so soon.  The evening after his final exam.  I was so excited to see him that weekend, to work out all the tension that had been growing between us.  I knew we had a disconnect.  I was planning on using this month between semesters to get to know each other better, for him to get to know me better.  For it to end now feels like we were never allowed a chance.  But I did give 100% to the relationship.  I always gave him the benefit of doubt and I was as patient as it gets.  I always tried to look positively on the situation and because of that I had a wonderful time when we were together.

I decided to call him and tell him what I have been feeling over the last couple days.  I didn’t go into the conversation with any expectations.  I was just hoping that at the very least I would get some kind of closure.  Closure it what I received.  It was obvious that we could have had a closer relationship, he just wasn’t into it.  I’m just going to have to let it go.